You leave me SPEECHLESS

Gastric and life now (25.03.09)

I remember how i used to complain how fat i was when i was in my secondary.. People who knew me knew that i had some surgery done 2 years ago.. When I was in secondary, the doctor gave me medicines which I need to consume daily.. And it was like almost 10 tablets per time I took, and taken twice a day.. Just imagine how much meds I need to take a day.. Aah, those time where I fainted twice in secondary, where I needed to be freed from sports and co-curricular activites. Mama banned me from drinking cold and icy drinks.. She banned me also from many other stuff la..

But, I still remember getting up at 5am in the morning, running to the fridge getting cold iced water.. When I hear her footsteps, I'll run back to bed with the cold bottle of water..

At that time, due to consuming so many meds, make me look lo chubby.. Aah, just FAT la.. I do not know why but I think until today I still blame the meds.. Until now, I am still considered FAT la, even at home.. My parents still say I am fat.. But, medical check-ups and regular body check-ups, doctors tell me I am healthy, and my weight and height was considered just perfect.. But, maybe the pressure I get from home makes me feel lack of confidence..

Yea this is the ugly and fat me in form 1 i guess.. How fat was I!!

I always skip meals, this I admit!! I skip breafast and lunch, to allow me to loose weight.. From one whole plate of rice I eat normally, now I'm only eating 2 spoons, maybe 1 now.. I managed to loose a lot, I tell you.. But, I got something much worser now.. I did not choose a proper diet way.. And now I am facing the consequences.. i ahve gastric pain now.. And the pain is really killing me.. Now, I am under the care of my mama again.. This time she bans me from more stuff!! No icy drinks, no chilly, no chocolates (Arghh... My favourite), more to go..

How i wish I am free from gastric pain!!! How i wish!!!

The meds I am taking now.. Blame me bah!! =(

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